AADD.
yea. I suppose i couldn't have asked for more promising results... but i'm getting a really diminished sense of achievement or lack thereof. i'm not sure why myself, it just doesn't seem right. Actually i hate getting results like this, it means i'm not being stretched, not being mentally challenged, simply, not being overwhelmed. I'm a person tat likes to be overwhelmed, put under pressure and then see how it goes. I'd much prefer to get my ass kicked hard and get an OOEE then being told i did well in compromised circumstances.....
sorry if this isn't coherent... alot of stuff going thru my head right now.
Can't believe i'm actually expressing my heartfelt thoughts on a blog... i'm one who truly believe in the human-quality of communication... expressing oneself thru voice or in person is wad i'm inclined to... it's just the one thing i hate about the internet and stuff... it dehumanizes. well, tat and porn.... turns out i'm highly dependent on tat characteristic of the internet coz i've been SO busy wif everything to actually meet up wif pals the cool joes. Got a major gig on the 17 of November wif the jazz band, Band Fest's comin up, OP and the chinese AO thing is simply not giving me the convalescence i need to recharge.
well, i promise i'll return wif a post less heavy-hearted,
Lester
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